RELAPSE💀

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Sometimes or maybe all times I miss being sick
Enclosed in that dull room engulfed with strong medicated oduor
With no one to talk to but so much to talk about

When the only people I realized I could trust were your backs
I tripped and fell in love with the dark…
Daily serve my coffee bitter, strong and black
Because breakfast tastes like giving up
And sucking on ice cubes serves as a balance diet

What keeps my beauty motivated
Are the men around me that hate the ~friend zone~
But when I say I have a ~boyfriend~  that’s the first place they run to

For the forever time the boy I love doesn’t love me back…
Previously, he would drop the *‘L’* word in the dark 
But now he doesn’t even call back after a stream of voicemails and flashbacks

I now smoke like a chimney,drink like a sailor
Cause my biology teacher happily uses my skeletal body for  reference

Recovery today feels so uncertain
When the thoughts of life after it becomes unreal
And death seems so certain

©️Amondiadee💕